Changes (go back »)

Well, it seems a lot has been changing, yet a lot has stayed the same. I had a plan a couple months ago when I came back to live here, but it seems to me that that plan will never come to life. My plan was to get a job and start saving up some money. The reality of things is that I will more than likely continue caring for the boys til the day they graduate from high school. I feel that I am the only one who wants to go forward with my life, it seems that everyone else wants me to just stay stagnant right where I am. I don't have the patience to stay where I am. I need to get out and do new things. I never go anywhere but the grocery store anymore. I need to get out, go to the club or something. I am really lacking in the social department, I almost have no friends, I have people who say they are my friends but its not like they ever want to just hang out.

    I need to do something different with my life, I need to get a job, get some friends, start saving money. If anything were to happen between me and Mitch right now I would be out on the streets with nothing but the clothes on my back. I need to save money for the times when things go sour. t seems to me that is an inevitableoccurance , it happens with every relationship I have ever been in. I don't have the best luck with things like that, I usually end up screwing things up somehow. I want things to be different. I want to carry my own weight around here.

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